微微 _ Vivi
Why are you still the only woman I've really loved in my entire life, still after 9 years since the last time we met? Why haven't I been able to find someone to love, during these 9 years?
I am not lying to myself anymore, I know cleary how things are. i still love you because I am loving the idea, the concept of you. We couldn't have the chance to live together and get to know if we really could get well together... we abruptly had to stop our relation in the middle of the passion, after just few week we had been together... we made love only once, and it was the best moment of my life.
I still love you because I still don't know how things could have been if we had continued our relationship and lived together.
But there's something that I can say for sure: I have never felt so deeply caught by a woman like when I stayed with you. Actually it happened once, but I was 16 years old and that was my first love story... anyway... what I wanna say is that during my last 20 years I have never felt in love with anyone, anytime I started a new ''serious'' relationship, I had alwas a kind of feeling that didn't make me feel fully involved, fully satisfied, and so fully in love. There have been always something that stopped me to fall in love with someone - most of time due by a lack in the physical attraction - and then finally brought me to break the relation.
But with you... it was different. I have liked you since the first time I met you online, and since the first time I met you in real, at that bus stop in the suburbs of Suzhou... you were in your brown gymsuite, like if you had just finished your gym session... omg, that was the first time we met, the 1st of may of 2014, and you wore just a gym jumpsuit, with no makeup, like if you aimed to show me the real Vivi, and test me if I was attracted by the real you.
Yes, I was attracted by you, even by the gym uniform version of you.
I wanna tell you about my feelings during the 3 days we spent together in Suzhou, that brought us to love eachother. Can I?
Please wait for me for the part 2 of this story.
